Hello dear ones,
Christmas is long gone, but somehow I was never alone long enough to post here.
I report times of Christmas, Christmas Eve again, as every year until the one grandma drinking coffee with my aunt, cousin and the cousin of the mother's side, then go home, cook something [I have a shower: D] and then off to the Riessen paternal family with all my cousins. (:
I mean delicious lasagna from last week had done something funny with my parents again minced Who will.. with the disgusting Hackfleischloeffel in my lasagna? Er. I nearly freaked out, got him dressed totally that the spoon is still full of meat and he said, as there would be no turn, then puts that nasty spoon in there and I'll scratch behind a piece that he smeared with the spoon has since he complains yet. And what has
unsageliche Assi at the end even the whole way lasagna on his plate? ER!
And my mother told me afterwards that he had told the lasagna would be not to his taste. Haha. Determined. She has tasted so awful ... not. -.-
I miss my loved ones, he was with his father, I would be happy with or would have taken him but it was not everything together.
evening then drank some more with my cousins sparkling wine, shisha smoking, made nonsense and recorded also in pictures. Well that was very nice. Sun at 3 clock came home and snuggled up with my sweetheart's arms, he woke up and we talked a little and cuddled and are then gone to sleep.
first holiday with his mother then, we both knit, nice lunch Undso, his mother gave me a beautiful hat. ♥
second holiday then, we both ate lunch with my family, my dear aunt [who has helped me take off], and their life 'were also there. Was very nice especially because he was there.
Somehow I feel Today lousy. Yesterday my love started to sicken me and I've already made a lot of worries, in the afternoon where he was in the sample, I was traveling with a friend, were in a cafe and have taken pictures. Was really nice. ♥
But then in the evening, he slept all the time. I have read. Eventually I got him awakened and we went down to bed, because it was half-second
01:45 clock: he coughs, it makes suffering noises, he's bad.
02:00 clock: he kept coughing, I'm worried, I'm freezing. 02:30
Clock: no change, I'm freezing more and more, I'm getting worse.
02:45 clock, I lay myself down but it is so close to his back, ignoring the noise, weep.
03:00 clock: time and again I'm starting to cry, he coughs, I'm cold not so much.
03:15 clock: I always cling tightly to him, cry, miss him even though he's there.
03:30 clock: once again I feel I love his soul, not his body. I feel close to their psychological not dark I'm lost.
03:45 clock: I browse my phone, read the few sms and see the few pictures. I use the memo, write a list of 'Never in life ...'. It acts only on him. And that he may never read this blog.
04:00 clock: I nestle my back close to his, trying to finally fall asleep exhausted.
04:15 clock: I look again to my Watch Phone. At some point I fall asleep well.
nights such an impact on the next day always very negative.
I have the feeling I gammel rum only. Okay, my love is here and I must not run away from home more. Anyway.
oderso morning I write on, my love is here again.
good night ♥
Bella.
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